December 2010
3 posts
Why am I forced to put everything on my shoulders . I’m not the only person around here and this shit definitely isn’t mine . I have my own things to do and worry about .
Apparently to my mom I’m an unemployed lazy kid that fucking sleeps all day . Are you fucking serious . . I was just working 2 jobs 2 weeks ago eating up my whole week . I have been working and employed at a sushi bar waiting tables and busting my ass for the same 2 years . I have been employed since I was 13 years old . I have given up EVERY weekend of my life since then to work and save up...
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Ever since I graduated high school my sleeping schedule has been a mess . I really don’t even sleep anymore . Every night I get about 3 hours of sleep . After school , if I don’t have anything to do then I just take a long ass naps . I’m becoming rather nocturnal now . I guess it just happened when I stopped talking on the phone at night . I donno . That always helped me...
November 2010
3 posts
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My night was pretty content . I liked it for the most part although it was a little iffy at some point . But you made my night . That made my week . The party was straight . Didn’t really know anyone . I messed up on my performance . First time doing a solo . Actually I had like 4 . I wonder how it turned out though .
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Days been going well so far . Chilled with Jenina all day basically . I didn’t even buy anything , not for myself , but I did get something at Virctoria’s Secret for homegirl’s birthday gift . Got home . Took a nap . Now I just have to find a way to get all my clothes ironed and everything without my parents knowing I’m dipping out on work to go to Arlene’s party...
Well , I haven’t been on this in a while . I guess I haven’t really found anything to bitch about recently . That , or I just held it in . But I guess I’m back to complain again . People suck . That’s all there is to it .
October 2010
3 posts
I miss the feeling of someone actually caring about me . .
I don’t know what to do anymore . All people ever do is fucking talk and apparently I’m always in the center of their shit , never with a reason though . I’m told I’m too negative but there’s nothing to ever look forward to . I always get the worse side of things . Honestly I don’t remember when I’ve actually had happiness . It’s always only...
I need to stop caring about people that don’t give a shit about me .
September 2010
4 posts
One of the worse feelings ever is being replaced . I hate when that shit happens . Honestly it comes around my way so often but it sucks so bad every time . Like how you can be such close friends with someone , not necessarily have feelings for each other , just good friends you can always talk to , make jokes , and just get mad at each other here and there but it’s okay cause shit happens...
Or I could just be not worth your time . That’s cool to . Didn’t except much just like everyone else . Rude . Self centered . It’s all good though . Sorry I wasted your time . Won’t happen again .
Feels like I’m not worth talking to when people take forever to answer because they’re doing something else and paying less attention to actually holding a conversation . Not much of a conversation more or less .
I realllllly fucking hate it when people leave in the middle of a conversation . Either talk to me or don’t . Don’t just stop replying and go off doing your own shit . That’s rude and fucking annoying . Even worse when you hit me up like 3 hours later and try to start another conversation . I already felt stupid trying to talk to you the first time and then I just ended up...
August 2010
15 posts
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
1) CLP
2) DGJ
3) TJM
4) Rest of the crew
5) Select few groups of friends .
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
I don’t regret anything because whatever event that happened in the past makes me who I am today . I’m not exactly proud of who I am completely but I try and I accept that . Life is too uncertain to have regrets .
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
1) “What am I going to do today?”
2) Food .
3) Dance .
4) Music.
5) Money status.
6) Certain people …
7) CALI !
Okay . I’m done putting up with people’s shit trying to be nice and holding back . Next time someone pisses me off . I’m punching that nigga in the face and then settling things .
People these days are just so damn ignorant .
Dancers’ block .
Lately I’ve been really choreo based and I hate it . Haven’t really been freestyling much and I need a lot of work . Wasted so much time just doing nothing . But the fact that I’m so versatile is just devastating to a dancer’s ability . For me , it shows , especially when I pop . There are days where I’m just in the mood and my hits are precise and I have a steady groove ....
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Hahaha Hmmmmm . .
1) I like girls that can dance . Dancers would be great . Choreo partner and all that jazz . Talent .
2) Definitely if they got a voice too . It’s just great when a girl can sing . That’s all there is to it .
3) Andd play guitar ? hehe I donno . I like girls that are musically inclined .
4) Sense of style . Not necessarily gotta...
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
1) I’m a full blooded Chinese born and raised in Virginia Beach with Cantonese as my first language and English as a second .
2) Dancing is my life passion I wouldn’t be able to live without it . Pop , lock , break , house , choroeo . You name it .
3) Attending ODU for a year or two and transferring to Cali .
4) I have a lot of bad habits that I know but...
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10) I’m done with you . Fuck you . I’ve never known the true meaning of hating someone until you showed me . When I’m gone I hope you give your bullshit to someone else that can handle it because I won’t settle for it . Never going to turn back to you . I never got along with you . I never will , but I’m completely fine with that . I don’t need you . Fuck off . Thanks . C.H.
9) I’m...
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) Day Seven: Four turn offs. Day Eight: Three turn ons. Day Nine: Two smileys that describe...
Victor: Everything is coming at me so fast now .... →
Everything is coming at me so fast now . Reality just isn’t fair at all . I got school tuition to pay , insurance , and a shit load of bills of things that I buy . I can say , for the most part , that I am somewhat lost or confused right now . The fact that I hate everything at the moment just doesn’t seem to comply to what life really is . The way I see it , nothing ever seems to fall into...
Victor: Sooo I’m trying to do my fucking financial... →
Sooo I’m trying to do my fucking financial aid shit so I can get it out of the way and get to practice for tomorrow and what not . Also trying to get ready for work at the same time . But apparently I can’t even finish it anymore . My dad broke my desktop that I fucking bought with my own money that was 900 a few months back when I wasn’t home . Then tried to fix it . And then fucking threw...
Keep your dreams and never let anything interfere .
I honestly feel completely lost right now . I don’t know what I want to do with my life . I just want to get out … I can’t take being with my parents anymore . I feel so constricted . So limited . .
So I’ve noticed that recently I’ve been kinda saying a lot of things that I really don’t mean . Like , I’ve been more absurd with my vocabulary and very blunt about things ; to everyone . Kinda been a jerk a sometimes but I honestly don’t mean it . When I do this it’s generally in a playful manner but in a way I guess it has meaning . Because really , if...
July 2010
7 posts
FUCK everything . I just wanna live my life . Why is it no matter how hard I try to just run away from all this shit it always comes back to me . No matter how hard I try to stay out of trouble it always finds me . What the fuck did I do to deserve all this shit . Fuck people . Fuck parents . Fuck ignorance . Fuck VA . I need to move far far away with a fresh start . I don’t care anymore ....
Just because I show what I feel does not mean I’m PMSing . It’s called being real . I’m not gonna hold back what I have to say just being it’s part of being a guy . That’s unethical . If I don’t like something or if it bothers me , I will speak out regardless of how I am look because that’s me . There’s no point in continuing with something that...
Left , ignored , insignificant , unimportant - forgotten .
One of the biggest things yet in a sense it’s just a small problem , for me , is when people leave in the middle of a conversation without word . To begin with that’s just rude and disrespectful . But then hit me up again and pretend like nothing happened . That bothers the hell out of me . For one typing ’ gotta go...
Looking through all my old myspace comments cause I guess that’s what everyones doing .
I got my myspace in 7th grade . So much has happened since then . All the people I use to talk to . The ones I used to like and all that . Time has gone by . I remember almost all of it .
Towards to recent comments I stumbled upon a few conversations that I don’t recall though . I guess it was an...
I’m getting old . Everyone I knew that is younger than me are all upperclassman or seniors now . People getting permits and licenses and cars now . Some even have jobs going out and experiencing the real world . I’m starting to feel really old even though I’m 18 . But then again , I did grow up before I was even a teen .
I’ve been employed since I was 13 and been working...
My legitimate goal for this summer would to just wake up early one morning and go meet up with someone . Go to the beach and watch the sunrise . And then maybe later on we can go to mount trashmore and do the same thing . That’d be nice .
July 20, 2010
Currently 18 . Employed . Going off to college at Old Dominion University as a Non-Degree Undergraduate . But yet I’m still treated like I’m fucking 5 and I don’t know anything about life . I understand that I’m your son but you can only hold on for so long and have a grasp that’s so strong . It’s honestly so fucking annoying . You question why I’m never...