So I’ve noticed that recently I’ve been kinda saying a lot of things that I really don’t mean . Like , I’ve been more absurd with my vocabulary and very blunt about things ; to everyone . Kinda been a jerk a sometimes but I honestly don’t mean it . When I do this it’s generally in a playful manner but in a way I guess it has meaning . Because really , if you don’t act just a bit of a asshole sometimes , you’re gonna get stepped on . And in the end no one is gonna watch your back except for yourself . So I guess sometimes you’re gonna have to look at things from another perspective because I can’t always be the nice guy . I don’t wanna get walked all over anymore . .